Well, then... Been dropping off the center of the earth for a little while, having experienced a thing or two over the last couple of months.

I am healing up from some rough experiences that I've gone through, starting to function pretty well when it comes to... Well... Everything. Still alot of work that needs to be done and I am working on it. Just takes time.
Been more social lately, having out with both new and old friends. Wishing badly I could visit some friends in other contries, but lacking the funds and time time to do so, sadly. I know that with some of those I wish to visit, I will have a couch waiting for me, but I don't wanna mooch of anyone.
But been more social with new friends I've made in the town I live in now, people I already love to bits because they are so damn awesome. Been trying out a thing or two, hanging out, having plenty of good fun, but... There is still a void inside me that wants to be filled and I can't seen to find out just what is missing. Well... Expect very obvious things, but for some reason... I know that's not what I a "missing" so to speak. There's something else... :/ Have no clue what though, by standards I am pretty darn lucky.
Still feeling I am pretty lousy when it comes to DA and LJ, by keeping up the friendships I have there. It's so much easier for me to poke people on MSN than it is to remember checking everyting out here and there, simply because I don't have the time and energy to do it, with juggling two jobs and trying to make ends meet at the same time as there's so damn much I wanna do with my time. Like... Visiting friends, spending time with friends I actually have near me, getting to know people better. Stuff like that. Things you really take for granted, but realise you want when you really don't have the opertunity to do it.

... D: I am growning up, aaaaaaah!

This is the second summer in a row I am working, to support myself. With two jobs this year. Still not sure if I will survive the summer or not because one will close for two or three weeks in August while the other is really depending on the weather... >> Would love a secure and "well-payed" job, but as of now, I have no real clue what I wanna do. I have several things that interest me, but there's nothing I burn for. I watch my friends, how they find their "spot in life" and I am still trying to figure just what the hell I can do. I tried my luck on teaching, but I don't have the correct type of athority to handle it. Or rather... I don't have the athority at all. I can't lead/command anyone. >.< Took me two and a half years to find that one out, but at least I tried. Been thinking about a couple of options, even considering remaining at my jobs for another year just to pay off some of the loan I have now and just to be around my friends some more.

All in all... I think I am still the same. Trying to be a better person than before, trying to be a better friend than before, feeling somewhat like a bad person in some situations, but I suppose, in the end... I am just human. Sadly.

*gives kudo's to all*